Grumble much?

*A Diary Entry maybe*

12/11/2015

Lately, I have been in a trance of forever dubiety. I seem to drift in my space of mind into endless horizons of wanton wants, self pity and one certain strife for an enigmatic restoration of my ambitious self.

All right!

I make no sense. But is anyone?

What does a person want in life! How about a stupendous love affair, followed by the whole family rearing? Or, if I recall the perpetual call of my ambitious self, then a powerhouse of a job? Wait, here is another one. What if I say, just lazing around people? No worries, no tears, no pressure. Just a cocktail in hand and a book to read; now say what do you think?

Say ideal enough?

Naah!!

Humans still would whine. And grouch. And moan about having it too easy. In this ideal situation, they would over analyze and grumble about and pipe that they need an adventure, that they don’t need this monotony. I for one am a perfect dissatisfied specimen of our ever evolving group of animals that term themselves as Homo sapiens. And good lord I can cry on and on about every tiny detail in my life. But you know it’s just not only me. Everyone is. Dissatisfaction is mounting with a catastrophic strength and confidence more and more as we carry on.

I have a sense at least, to go on. Mind you, not sans the characteristic grumpiness. But alas, it’s a misfortune to hear that some of us lively creatures take matters into our own hand and take a leap. Quite literally they do leap. Whereas some get real cozy with oblivion and give no thought at all to the “mounting dissatisfaction”. I believe these are one other group of people whose conception, I skipped to mention. Trust me, they do exist. They exist and sometimes give me a whole lot of reason to wish.

As I grew up, my brain came up with the most foolish of a suggestion that time would change this. That aging would defeat the treacherous confused wants. There you go, silly us and me. Time just adds more ideas and when blended makes it a whole lot more interesting. Please do catch the sarcasm here.

What I learnt, is to give up on such thoughts, to rein in the confused spirit and let loose the oblivious person that’s somewhere inside. Well! Being a mighty imprudent human, sometimes I do and sometimes, what the heck?? I whine a little. Grouch a little and even moan a little.

*Anonymous*